Is Love Possible

I made madeleines this morning,
making me think of
the magical way you incorporate citron
into your many wonderful dishes.
These memories I cherish
even more than the sweet
succulence of fresh French pastries
that have long lost their splendor
in the absence of you.

What a weird way to live,
at a juncture where all my hopes,
all my dreams,
depend on someone I hope
loves me as much
as I love them,
if love is ever even possible.